Hell, in my first 5k race i wore a cotton shirt AND socks. That's how new i was.
Once i began training for my first half marathon, i learned more and more about running and found amazing blogs written by amazing runners.
I love reading their posts about new products, a good run, their training, and race recaps.
BUT.
Sometimes what is a great post about an amazing accomplishment, i find a way to turn it into something negative to me personally. Like, "Holy shit, she ran a sub 2:30 on her first half marathon?!" or "A sub :30 on a 5k?!"
Because i know that will never be me. And then i think about some of my posts and how i ran 3:03 on my first half...and i just start to get down on myself. "Ohmygosh i hope they've never read my posts - they probably laughed out loud at my times."
Ok, ok, i know this probably hasn't ever happened. But i start doubting myself as a runner. And can i even call myself a "runner"? Do i not belong in the running community because i am more of a jogger? And still get winded after 3 miles?
But then i tell myself to shut up and quit thinking that. So what if i'm slow? I am still able to run and that is more than some people can say. Yes, i might completely collapse and have a horrible time during my 10 miler on Sunday. But i am going to TRY. That's all i can do.
Just don't expect a bragging post race recap post. ;)
Now, if you'll excuse me i am going to watch disc 2 of The Vampire Diaries that just arrived tonight. And drool over the hotness that is the guy that plays Stefan.
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Oh I hear you. I do the exact same thing and think that people probably laugh at my times but hey, it's faster than the people on the couch :)
We are doing something healthy so regardless of how fast or slow we may be, we are doing something good for our bodies and that's ALL that matters.
Keep up the good work!
I enjoyed reading your post...
I am addicted to vampire diaries..I love stefan too..
I can totally relate to what you are saying. I am not a fast runner...but I've gotten faster. I ran my very first 5K at 42 or 43 minutes...it was still the best experience of my life!! Now I'm running them at around the 28-29 mark. Never in a million years did I think I would be doing that. Honestly, I never EVER thought I could do that.
You cant worry about time or comparing yourself to others. All that matters is that you give it the best you got!! The fact that you even signed up for this race goes to show how kick ass you are and how determined you are. You are going to do *AMAZING* at this race and I seriously cannot wait to hear all about it. Just give it your all and dont give up and your the #1 winner of that race in my book ;) xoxo
Self doubt will kill you. Don't compare, run your own race. If you are not walking you are running and you are a runner. Do I need to hit you upside the head!! Seriously, be where you are and be proud of it. We all think you are amazing!
Hey my first half I did 3:04!! :)
When I first started reading blogs I did that too. Then I realized that I'm doing the best I can and I have fun. I know it's hard to not compare yourself to others but maybe you can compare yourself to you. I always look back at how I started when I could barely run a mile. Then I see how far I've come and I feel better. Just enjoy yourself and YES YOU ARE A RUNNER! :)
Don't be a silly goose. You are doing phenomenal. I can still remember your 1st 5k .. glad I was there with ya ... and look how far you've come. 5k to 1/2 marathon ... are you kidding me? There will always be faster runners out there ... doesn't matter how fast you get .. and to continue your dedication to the running world is an accomplishment in itself. My thoughts are always to run my own pace (that's why I find it hard to run with people), whether its training or its a race ... its MY pace, its MY goals, and it's MY accomplishments. So run for yourself ... coz you've come a long long way !!!
Always,
Gee
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