Hell, in my first 5k race i wore a cotton shirt AND socks. That's how new i was.
Once i began training for my first half marathon, i learned more and more about running and found amazing blogs written by amazing runners.
I love reading their posts about new products, a good run, their training, and race recaps.
Sometimes what is a great post about an amazing accomplishment, i find a way to turn it into something negative to me personally. Like, "Holy shit, she ran a sub 2:30 on her first half marathon?!" or "A sub :30 on a 5k?!"
Because i know that will never be me. And then i think about some of my posts and how i ran 3:03 on my first half...and i just start to get down on myself. "Ohmygosh i hope they've never read my posts - they probably laughed out loud at my times."
Ok, ok, i know this probably hasn't ever happened. But i start doubting myself as a runner. And can i even call myself a "runner"? Do i not belong in the running community because i am more of a jogger? And still get winded after 3 miles?
But then i tell myself to shut up and quit thinking that. So what if i'm slow? I am still able to run and that is more than some people can say. Yes, i might completely collapse and have a horrible time during my 10 miler on Sunday. But i am going to TRY. That's all i can do.
Just don't expect a bragging post race recap post. ;)
Now, if you'll excuse me i am going to watch disc 2 of The Vampire Diaries that just arrived tonight. And drool over the hotness that is the guy that plays Stefan.