So I'm kinda OCD.
Maybe OCD isn't the best way to describe it, but I have a routine. And when my routine gets messed with, I get a little crazy.
Example: If I'm not in bed before 9:30, I kinda freak. And countdown in my head how much sleep I'm losing. (Yeah, I don't know.)
I have been pretty diligent with my training for the upcoming half. I haven't missed a single long run (except for last week when I was in WPB.) So when this sickness came around (a-freaking-gain), I panicked. Due to sheer exhaustion and not being able to breathe, I wasn't able to run Sunday, Monday or Tuesday. This messed with my routine.
And I panicked and started to think about how this was going to set me back so far and all my hard work was out the window. Crazy? Yes. Irrational, I know. I went for a very short run tonight, about 2 miles and it wasn't too bad. I need to do 3 miles tomorrow and 10 miles Saturday. I'm scared because I'm not fully recovered from this nasty cold, but i don't want to miss any more runs.
Basically, I'm spazzing because I want a sub 3 so bad. And it makes me mad that this is such a hard goal for me. I'm giving it my best and I just want that to be good enough. :P
Chicken nuggets for EVERYONE!!!
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